Can't believe it's been this long since I've written

Wow I can't believe it's been this long since I wrote on my blog. Thank you my friend Isaida for giving me the inspiration to write again :)

Timmy's trial was held in December 2010 and Penalty Phase was in January 2011. The trial was awful, to say the least. To sit in the court room with those 2 murdering men was enough for a life time. They showed no remorse whatsoever. Witness after witness testifyig how they bragged about what they did. Seeing pictures I wish I'd never seen. One of the things that will haunt me the most is the 7-11 video they showed of Timmy's last moments. Him and Damien went to the store to buy snacks for that night and the next morning as they were going to go lawn mowing. You could see them walking around the store, then at the cash register, Dame paid, and Timmy held the bags. As they were leaving, Dame in front Timmy in the back with the bags, I looked at the time stamp it was 2:16 and as that door closed I realized that time was the last time anyone would see my son alive. I broke down. I have to admit I stayed strong thruout the whole trial as best as I could. But the two hardest things I had to deal with was the Impact Statement and watching that video. I can still so vividly see it re-play itself in my mind over and over again. Both men were found guilty of first degree double homicide. Both received double life sentences without parole plus like 30 years for other related charges. The people who stood by me and my family I will forever be grateful for. My family, friends, neighbors and Timmy's friends, all those who made it to the trial even just a day, I thank you for being there and for the support. I had a great DA, wonderful detectives and police officers who were so very kind to us, and an absolutely great judge. I thank the jury for seeing through a long trial and giving my son justice. The shooter of my son, his life spared by one juror, 11-1 for the death sentence, he's so lucky that one person just couldn't put a young man to death, but in PA it's never enforced anyway. I am happy with the verdict and I thank the jury for giving both of them what they deserve, life behind bars for the rest of their miserable lives. May they see my son's face each night they close their eyes before the go to sleep. I'm going to try more often to write on my blog, maybe it will help me. I thought at first I couldn't do it, I just can't. This is dedicated to my son, but it also is for me to help me through the pain I live with each and every day. Since then I've lost my job of 22 years. That's a whole other story!!!! But I thank God each day I wake up and say ok, here we go again, stay with me so I can stay strong and be there for my other 2 boys. Well I think I should stop now since writing this brings back so many difficult memories of the trial. With this crazy life of mine, I'm sure I'll have more coming, and of course memories of Timmy will be shared, as I dedicate this blog to him as he will forever be in my heart and soul and my love for him is eternal.